Gone

perfect song for my files?

GONE

Gawd I miss my files!
All the documents I’ve been contributing for all these years was lost!

That fckn virus arghhh

Swear i’m really pissed

I  don’t even want to remember it but i’m really pissed, very disappointed..

All pictures

All of my COMPOSITIONS are gone

You know they’re very important to me..
They’re a part of me.. T.T

How stupid of me naman kasi to not make a back up of those important files

>,

Broken whatever…

Who doesn’t get crazy?
Well I guess all of us has already did
Sometimes we’re up…
Sometimes we’re down,

Me?
I am really down now,
Really down…

and it makes me mad

Ugh
*sigh*
but I think I know truly what I’m doing,
it’s just that I dunno..
I dunno where the wind will take me
I’ll just leave it all.. to that wind

Whatever it is

Wherever it is

*sigh*
I feel like I didn’t have anything
Though I really have something
I know I should look at the glass as half-full

I know I should not be down when troubles arise
I know that I should trust God coz His ways are not always man’s ways
But hey I still feel desperate!
Feels like I’m a total loser!
I dunno what to say..
I love something
But I was not taking good care of it
Or even paying enough attention to it..
Till it was lost And Can’t be found anymore
Till I regretted everything And wished I could turn back time
But it’s all too late now
And all of the things I’ve done were all regretted
Wishing I was more considerate and diligent back then…
Wishing I’ve gone for it if I really liked it
But the other thing that’s missing is confidence..
Tears?
I don’t know what use are they
‘Coz even though you cry a river,

even though you shed blood

or even a river of blood,
it doesn’t matter,
nothing changes…
but of course
the burden you feel inside will be lessened
but the f****n problem wont go away..
Funny isn’t it?

Who the hell even said that life is that easy, anyway?..

that easy that if you’ll shed even just a single tear,

all the crap will be gone.

How I wish real life’s like that….

But life’s not life without its ups and downs

Plus

We’re no longer a lil child

Who often tripped over our own feet…

Who’ve always cried when bullied by the bad guys…

but then easily stops when the adults told those bastards to apologize

or when they comfort us…

Oh no

It’s not anymore like that….

right?

Remember that we haven’t been a seed to be like then forever

I know it’s all my fault
And I can’t do anything now
but go where the freakin wind takes the stupid me
but then, i still wonder if God has better plans for me than I have for myself…
well I wish there are…
Only God knows…
that’s the way it goes, isn’t it?
No one regrets things at first…
Regression always come at the end…
When it’s too late,
When you’re desperate,
When all you can do is contemplate…

this doesn’t deserve to be entitled

i used to be a little and ordinary fowl
i never believed in myself
never thought i could do everything i’ve done
i used to be one of those in a crowd doing nothing but watching everybody..
waiting for something else to happen
waiting for somebody else to do something
but now i’ve spread my tiny wings…
i tried to fly…
and at my first try…i succeeded
but at my second…i failed

i looked around

and saw my love ones who are always there for me…
i saw them cheering for me…
saying i could do it and that this is the very chance..
the very chance to show what i’ve got
and that if I will not start now,
when will i?
how will i?
and

will i ever have the chance again?
they served as my inspiration…
my constant guiding light…
and so i decided to stand up
i continued the trial…
i tried to fly again…
and this time i have more courage, strength and determination…
so here i am again, the tiny fowl ..
spreading my tiny wings…
getting ready to fly…soar high…
slowly….slowly now i’m moving my wings
and it goes faster and faster
with every tick of the clock…
it goes faster…
till i felt that my feet is gradually leaving the  face of the earth…
wow this is the start of my first flight..i thought..
i continued to move my wings even faster..
up and down..
up and down..
it goes really fast!

look i’ve left the ground!
i flew!
i made it!

Though I can’t flew as high as any other birds out there…

At least I’ve flown!
see how happy the tiny fowl was…
she used to be little..unnoticed…
but look at her..

she reached her aim…
though not that immense…
it was an aim…an aspiration..a tiny dream which was reached
for the tiny fowl which is me,

i’m happy with reaching something like that..
what matters is i’ve reached it…
no matter it’s too late
inspite of the twists and turns
inspite of everything…
at least i’ve made it…
and the tiny fowl will continue practicing how to fly
until she became a great flier just like an eagle….
brave..
confident..
wise…
an eagle who knows what she’s doing…
where she’s at…
and

where she is going…. 

12:44 am

tama bang dun ilagay ang oras? haha panu ba nmn ala aqng maicp na title noh…;) hehe another post for my blog yey cnicipag aq ngaun eh dunno why…haizz

no more tears

Nawala pa ung original na post ko..kainis! Kailangan ko tuloy ulitin….hmpf anyway eto na..

Tungkol lang naman sa  bago kantang na-compose ko kagabi, title?  “No more tears” Bakit kamo? *hinga* Kagabi kasi gusto kong umiyak pero hindi ko magawa…walang tumulong luha eh…siguro ayaw lang ng utak ko, dahil sabi niya “Hindi naman siya ganun kahalaga para iyakan, sino ba siya?”…Akala ko manhid na manhid na ako pero hindi pala. Kagabi ko lang nalaman na nasasaktan din pala ako kahit kaunti..kaunti lang ;p Here’s the lyrics…. pinakagusto kong part ung bridge! Ako mismo hindi makapniwala na ako magsasabi ng mga ganitong salita…Parang hindi ako. Hibang na ata ako?! Haha Anyway, eto na talaga ung lyrics…

No More Tears

I

Now I have accepted my fate

That you will never love me back

It’s clear to me that all are far
from the fact but

Chorus

I can’t cry anymore

My tears have dried before long

No more tears will be shed for you
baby

No more tears….

II

You were my love

But that have been the past

Everything changes

You should understand

So don’t imagine…

Instrumental

Repeat Chorus

Bridge

I’m saying this to you

It seems like I’m treating myself
like a fool

I can’t even admit to myself that

The more I forget about you

The more that my heart bleeds

I hate the fact that your love is
all that it needs…

All that it needs but

Repeat Chorus

So far…eto ang pinakamaiksing kanta ko…

The end

poetic end

Eto po yung bagong song na kinompose ko.

Medyo malungkot po yung kanta… hehe ala lang…baka po nagtataka kayo kung bakit “Poetic End” ang title…anagram poh yan kc dapat poh talaga deception kaso tunog reception eh medyo hindi maganda pakinggan kaya ginawan ko na lang ng anagram..poetic end=deception.

Intro

I

I don’t wanna believe anyone anymore….

For me

the truth in this world is no more…

Who can save me from this confusion?

‘Coz Now, happiness is just an illusion

Chorus

Coz/But loving myself is what I’ll do more…

In this world, nothing is easy…

Beautiful Words that are untrue and cheesy

Can’t deceive me…

II

I’ve been fooled and my love for you ruled…

But now the love, the care, all is gone..

But still, I’ll wait till the right one comes…

Bridge

The time may not be now…

But I really am sure…

It will come…he will come…

He will come for me…

To love,

To care for me

To be with me forever

Repeat Chorus

First Post!

Obvious ba? hehe

Well, this is my new blog! Finally I’ve found the one na sigurado akong hindi ako tatamaring iupdate haha. I have several blogs kasi kaso lahat yun inaamagski na :p Anywayz wala pa akong matinong mailalagay dito. Next tym na lang…Ciao!